Simplicity

2012-01-02T10:28:00.001+08:00

我就活这一次，我要活的精彩，我要更加有勇气...
2012..

我在追尋甚麼東西?

我会找到的。

Party Rock

2011-10-21T02:37:00.002+08:00

Everybody just have a good time!!!!!!

Lose your mind!!!

Everyday I'm shuffling!

2011-04-20T15:51:00.001+08:00

I feel happy =)

with simple little things

I feel bliss =)

with simple daily life

I feel encapsulated with joy =)

Simply because life is simple.

2011-04-11T23:31:00.001+08:00

2011-04-11T17:00:00.001+08:00

热闹后的孤单让人更加了解珍惜平凡

2011-03-22T23:38:00.001+08:00

Failed.....

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2011-03-18T18:47:00.001+08:00

i dont do drugs.. i a drugs

2011-03-16T17:36:00.001+08:00

Success is not the key to happiness

Happiness is the key to success

2011-03-14T14:48:00.001+08:00

when we are worrying about simple daily life.. ppl across is worries about living... some have been taught brave because they were afraid to run away..

2011-03-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

Dont worry so much about you life since you wont survive it anyway =)

I wont worry about it so much, even if it had been really terrible recently.

i'll just live it.

enjoy every moment in life...

every happiness..

every fear

every joy

every tear

for once.. i forgot about how to live it... and then again... i find the will to carry on.

2011-03-08T15:26:00.001+08:00

im a slping beauty

2011-03-07T16:56:00.002+08:00

1+1 =3

2011-03-03T17:12:00.000+08:00

Dont believe when ppl say they care for u... ya they care for u to die!

Some ppl are just pure evil...

2011-03-01T13:36:00.001+08:00

It's a hectic week.. let's not focus on negative energy that is given by others.. dont let anyone judge u for youself =) stay happy and just let all this bitches burn in hell... =P

2011-02-27T01:39:00.001+08:00

there are stuff we cant change.. we cant take back.. the only thing we can do is to learn and move on..

2011-02-25T01:53:00.001+08:00

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

2011-02-21T15:52:00.000+08:00

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

2011-02-19T11:20:00.002+08:00

Not all is smooth sailing.. had a utterly terrible day yesterday... hope all is well..

I realize it is hard to cope with insecurity, how do u even manage it? seriously.

2011-02-18T00:47:00.001+08:00

Rapunzel tells us one thing about love. Climbing the highest tower becomes less difficult if someone at the end gives you reason to hold on.

2011-02-16T13:44:00.003+08:00

Family =D

Friends =)

4 more months and it will be the end of my life as a student. I'll be missing it but at the same time feeling really excited about going into the working world.

2011-02-01T22:16:00.001+08:00

2011-02-01T03:13:00.000+08:00

6 months really pass very fast....

Virgin trip to TP

2011-01-05T13:39:00.003+08:00

My first ever trip to TP to food scout with jie, it's been so long since i last step into any poly. Feeling young once again. The food was rather ok and school is nice but i still prefer NP!! haha miss my days in np... one day i shall return and have a food hunt there!

Jie giving the 色色look!

2011-01-04T17:16:00.002+08:00

leaving on a jet plane to land on the smiles in 7 more days =D planned my itinerary this time. uber excited about it!

Eat

Pray

SHOP!!

2011-01-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

What keeps us holding on when things are so tough? Faith. I have faith that one day things will get better =D

2010-12-28T15:06:00.003+08:00

The boxing day dinner with pals

The supper hop!

2010-12-19T03:25:00.002+08:00

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You' d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I'll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won't do the same,
You wouldn't do the same,
Ooh, you'll never do the same,
No, no, no, no LOVEEEE this song~

2010-12-19T03:11:00.000+08:00

Of food and friends

2010-12-16T17:43:00.004+08:00

Supper @ AL ameen bukit timah

First taste of texas chicken.

2010-12-16T17:05:00.001+08:00

Let's work it out sweat it out and time to TRAVEL the world!

2010-12-15T13:33:00.001+08:00

let's club~~

2010-12-14T23:47:00.001+08:00

话重复的讲了又讲。可是设么也没改变。

我

真

的

累

了

2010-12-12T16:42:00.001+08:00

For all of us are prisoners of our vanities

2010-12-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

We boil at different degrees.

'What so bad about being different?' i asked myself.

What do i have to live the norm, be the norm? I love being myself more now after thinking about it. Live is too short to be someone else, just be who you are and love being who you are.

Being silly, being childish or even being obnoxious is just a trend that people dictates. Why bother? really.

I don't care any more. Exactly what i want.

2010-12-04T22:34:00.001+08:00

“I’ve spent a good part of the day thinking about things that I should not think about, desiring things that I should not desire, planning to do things that I should not do.”
The master pointed to a plant and asked the disciple if he knew what it was.
“It’s a belladonna. It can kill you if you eat the leaves. But it can’t kill you just by looking at it. Likewise, negative desires can cause no harm – if you don’t let yourself be seduced by them.”

2010-11-23T01:20:00.001+08:00

What goes up must come down... Sometimes we wish we could control more of our emotion.. but emotion wont be emotion if it dont flow..

2010-11-20T14:35:00.001+08:00

好想好想放手。

好想变的懦弱。

好想放下一切的伪装，然后痛哭一场。

对于一切的压力我好累了。

=（

2010-11-18T17:37:00.001+08:00

Addiction.

Facebook addiction. Procrastination addiction. Laziness addiction.

2010-11-13T00:02:00.003+08:00

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2010-11-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

Don’t cry, just say fuck you and smile.

2010-11-10T00:25:00.002+08:00

Ups and Downs ... too much of them makes the heart gone wild...

Having a mood landslide. All the way down hill...

I wish i could feel just a little happier...

i hate drowning in mindless sorrowfulness....

Tears are words the heart can't say...

2010-11-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

2010-10-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

2010-10-19T14:32:00.001+08:00

All days are nights to see till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.
How like a winter hath my absence been
From thee, the pleasure of the fleeting year!
What freezings have I felt, what dark days seen!
What old December's bareness everywhere!

2010-10-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

whoa ji sweet yi xia! hahaha

2010-10-14T10:25:00.001+08:00

whatcha say?

2010-10-14T00:54:00.004+08:00

Here are the most memorable quotes from the 'Eat Pray Love' movie:

Ketut (Habi Subiyanto): "Do not look at the world through your head; look at it through your heart."

Liz: "I remember an old catholic joke about a man who spent his whole life going to a church every day and prayed to the statue of a great saint begging "please, please, please, let me win the lottery." Finally the exasperated statue comes to life and looks down at the begging man and says "my son, please, please, please, buy a ticket." So now I get the joke, and I bought three tickets."

Giovanni(Luca Argentero): "We call it "dolce far niente", the sweetness of doing nothing."

Liz: "A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation."

bliss and contented =D

2010-10-11T23:22:00.005+08:00

Losing motivation when the journey for this trip is about to end. Losing control of my mind. Losing fate in everything i do.

but.

I slowly realize things happened for a reason.

We moved on and at times look back and smile. How silly we had been.

I smiled.

Feeling so happy. Learning that confusion starts from our own mind, our own desire.

=D

2010-10-08T23:57:00.001+08:00

how i wish it was as easy as A B C...

sometimes it's just so confusing...

i wonder if it will be easier if everyone had a monitor on them and write how they feel...

2010-10-07T23:24:00.001+08:00

Freaking stress out over the fact that i have a quiz on Monday and a mini fyp report to submit.

The worst part. it's going to be fri and i have yet to start either.

Lazy. Fucking lazy.

The only time i am looking forward to now is every weekends, where i get to row my stress and procrastination off.

2010-10-05T16:23:00.001+08:00

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

2010-10-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

this song is so haunting ... roswell.. =D

he has done a nice mashup

2010-10-01T00:43:00.002+08:00

i think i am really getting old. Drove to my friend's place to help him to pack his children's day present and totally forgot to switch off my headlight.

Guess what?!

The batteries went flat. Totally.

Hence in the middle of 4am i have to walk home. Total loser.

gosh.

But nevertheless it was fun preparing stuff for the kids. =D

This is a must watch.

=) smile.

2010-09-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

2010-09-28T01:37:00.001+08:00

If you're humble, nothing can touch you. Not praise, nor disgrace, because you know who you are =D

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

2010-09-26T01:31:00.003+08:00

只是過去的甜蜜太過深刻，要多久才能夠褪色？

我就不相信我会笨到忘不了赖着不放掉

人本来就寂寞的我总会把你戒掉

借来爱情

都该还掉

而我内心的快乐

在放下那一刻

才真正开始

2010-09-24T23:11:00.003+08:00

Trust

Is giving trust to people wrong? Someone told me i was being too gullible. Not everyone has no agenda to their actions. In fact i notice all this; the backstabbing, the 'i-am-just-concern-but-i-still-want-to-bitch-about-you'. I know, just that i pretend not to.

Care

Is showing too much care a sin? if it really is i should be stone to death. 'i suffer in silence. i dont cry in front of people. i can smile despite how shitty things are. i leave my phone on at night just in case someone needs me. it's because i love everyone else more than i could ever love myself. what can i say, im just a fuck up with a good heart.' quoted.

What matters is not the first, but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race

2010-09-22T10:44:00.001+08:00

Love me when I least deserve it, because that is when I really need it.

2010-09-21T23:06:00.002+08:00

i shall be an obedient boy and clean my teeth and gum regularly and visit the dentist every 6 months!!

2010-09-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

why do i feel empty?

what's the point of trying so hard to be happy, when all i can do is to feel sad?

Emotion aside, next week will be the 5men crew competition.

First race, not participating but cant wait to support my team mates. It had been 2 months since i started rowing and i must say i was never so determine to complete any activity i started. This time i am.

2010-09-19T22:00:00.005+08:00

Leona Lewis Lost Then Found (ft. Onerepublic) Lyrics

staring at tears on the pages
of letters that i never could write
i know love isnt painless but its worth the risk its worth the fight
playing it over and over i wish that i could turn back time
baby we`re wrong but we could be right

why do we say things we cant take back
and why do we miss what we never had
both of us fell to the ground and love was so lost
it couldnt be found
what would it take to forget who`s blame
im tired of crying at the sound of your name
why dont we turn this around
love in the ending dont you wanna be lost then found

lost then found....
lost then found....
love in the ending we could be lost then found

empty glasses and tables
echo`s through these walls
the memories go were we go there like the suitcase that you never lose
if the good lords eye is upon me
i swear to make things right
what ever we`ve lost i know we can find

why do we say things we cant take back
and why do we miss what we never had
both of us fell to the ground and love was so lost
it couldnt be found
what would it take to forget who`s blame
im tired of crying at the sound of your name
why dont we turn this around
love in the ending dont you wanna be lost then found

the winds are calling up we cant stop the rain wish that you could take
it back but its to late its to late..

why do we say things we cant take back
and why do we miss what we never had
both of us fell to the ground and love was so lost
it couldnt be found
what would it take to forget who`s blame
im tired of crying at the sound of your name
why dont we turn this around
love in the ending dont you wanna be lost then found

lost then found....
lost then found....
love in the ending we could be lost then found

the winds are calling up we cant stop the rain
wish that you could take it back but its to late its to late..

we could be lost then found.

Hope i can be lost... then found..

2010-09-17T18:34:00.001+08:00

why do i feel so disappoint out of the sudden? mood swing probably...

No more expectation. No more disappointment.

Kriffin movie outing

2010-09-17T10:26:00.004+08:00

Kriffin movie outing

Iphone 4's function rox!

The movie was not that fantastic (resident evil!) but the entertainment definitely come from the group. Shall not spoil anything. Anyway there are another 2 movies that i personally want to watch, 'going the distance' and 'eat,pray,love'.

2010-09-16T00:22:00.000+08:00

2010-09-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

3 words, 8 letters.... say it and I'm yours..

2010-09-14T22:49:00.001+08:00

was trying to move my blog to tumblr but was a total failure...

2010-09-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

“Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you’ve never met”

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul”

“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when i’m awake, you know?”

“I don’t know what I feel anymore”

i dont want to grow old not knowing how you look like

2010-09-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

“Being happy doesn’t mean everything’s perfect. It means you’ve decided to look past the imperfections.”

2010-09-07T00:32:00.001+08:00

Am i too honest for my own good? admitting to my own feelings? which is better being honest with your own feelings or pretending not to have any?

2010-08-30T00:54:00.003+08:00

I miss a lot of things/people in general but slowly i realize i am already use to it.

I am already use to this/that/you.

You grow internally when you are facing difficulties in life.

I grew more than i expect myself to.

I don't need nobody

Tellin' me just what I wanna

What I want what, what I'm gonna

Do about my destiny

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away

And today I'm officially missing you

2010-08-27T00:43:00.001+08:00

Nice song that caught my ears...

why will one miss love that was almost there...

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say is I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I shoulda made you my boo boy
Yeah that's one time I shoulda broke the rules
I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into
If it happend now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

2010-08-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

.......................

Cant wait for sat to receive my own paddle =DDDDDDD

2010-08-25T01:48:00.000+08:00

還是原來那個我不過撂掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會換這張臉應對笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你又改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果
會有什麼什麼都沒有早點看破才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
傷到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

寂寞寂寞就好 Hebe 田馥甄第二波主打

2010-08-23T18:12:00.001+08:00

有时候我真的不知道自己要什么。。。在做什么。。。。

2010-08-23T16:22:00.001+08:00

2010-08-23T15:51:00.001+08:00

被问了整晚你怎么不在朋友难得狂欢
我苦笑隐瞒放任他们猜不知情不责怪
热闹散场躲回安静的床
快窒息的心慌没改善方法

不爱你说分开都是为我着想
用忽略解散爱太牵强
世界被你划成两个方向
一边是我一边是天堂

要我更乐观劝我再去爱很像你不意外
这一种野蛮名字叫关怀别拿来代替爱
清晨阳光晒不进我心房
我比谁都好强你太清楚了吧

别爱你说分开都是为我着想
用自由解散爱太逞强
遗忘让人轻盈得能飞翔
我不是你想去的地方
爱越拉扯越疼痛不再抢救
好聚好散假装洒脱
我们太善良连自己都骗不过
我爱你说未来很长一切难讲
放弃了解散爱别勉强
我的幸福你决定不在场
还是演不好我的体谅

2010-08-21T19:19:00.001+08:00

终于放下了。。。。

2010-08-14T04:05:00.001+08:00

2010-08-12T02:28:00.006+08:00

以为坚强

以为已经没事了

可是還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你

還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息

然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰

當擁有已經是失去

就勇敢的放棄

還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記

還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定

然而當愛最後的出口是分離

放手还是不放已不是我的决定了

對你說一句只是說一句好久不見

你说的对可能我真的走火入魔

2010-08-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

Lyrics:
(Sean)
Eenie meenie miney mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

Shes indecisive
She cant decide
She keeps on lookin
From left to right

Girl, cmon get closer
Look in my eyes
Searchin is so wrong
Im Mr. Right

You seem like the type
To love em and leave em
And disappear right after this song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin alone

You cant make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
Please dont waste my time, time, time, time, time
Im not tryin to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

(Justin)
Let me show you what your missin
Paradise
With me youre winning girl
You dont have to roll the dice
Tell me what youre really here for
Them other guys?
I can see right through ya

You seem like the type
To love em and leave em
And disappear right after the song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin alone

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

(Sean)
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one
(repeat)

Day 1, Rejuvenation

2010-08-05T23:03:00.009+08:00

Omitting all questions and denying all senses to find an answer i left Singapore to a land of smiles.

"Like the flowing river", indeed soften my heart like the flowing river.

Flying high, with a clear blue sky that is surrounded by marshmallow-like clouds. The feeling of renaissance seems to be slowly kicking in.

Indulging in sumptuous food makes me =D SMIZE

Beside this. Smelly durian.

Making shirts and pants at pinky is a must! First time making a tailored shirt is quite an unique experience. Choosing every detail yourself, from the collar to the sleeves. Causing a healthy 40 sing. It's all worth it.

Ending day one with shopping at MBK and dinner with local tom yam goong is a must.

ราตรีสวัสดิ์, which means good night in thai.

2010-07-29T04:00:00.002+08:00

Wanted to post this quite some time ago but was too lazy =X Food and company =D

in 3 hours time i'll be on a flight to thailand =DDDDD I guess it's a rather good time for me to take a break from my current life. A reset button i should say....... hopefully after this 5 days i will have cleared my doubts about stuff and have a great start again..... im looking forward to the trip but im even more looking forward to coming back and have a fresh start in life =D Bye singapore! hello thailand!

2010-07-28T15:04:00.002+08:00

2010-07-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

2010-07-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

除了想你　除了愛你
我什麼什麼都願意
翻開日記　整理心情
我真的真的想放棄

你始終沒有愛過　你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不從心　無力繼續

這感情
不值得我猶豫
不值得我考慮
不值得我愛過你

這種回憶
不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣

這段感情
早就應該放棄
早就不該讓我浪費時間找奇蹟

這樣的你
不值得我恨你
不值得我為你而壞了心情

我決定不為你而毀了心
（為你而放棄愛情）
放棄愛你

2010-07-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.

Just got this book called, ' Like the flowing river ' by Paulo Coelho. It consist of a collection of his reflections and short stories. These are powerful tales of living and dying, of destiny and choice, of love lost and found. Sometimes humorous, sometimes serious, but always profound, this book, like all of Coelho's work, explores what it means to be truly alive.

Tried out dragonboating today, interestingly i felt as fit as the youngsters.

There are so much more i have to learn in life but i am really happy and contented with the things i have and will have.

Some people came into my life giving me happiness and joy, some scaring me. Both imparting great life lessons. Learning to cherish happiness and grow from the scar.

2010-07-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

Went for volunteering orientation today and i really like how sgcares has this episodic volunteering(meaning volunteer whenever u are free and not those that you have to commit for 6 months), it really help people like me with a hectic schedule able to volunteer. Not only that i will be able to bring friends(for 1 time) to any of the activities, so if any of you are interested do tell me. =)

And we were shared with this story called the star thrower and i would like to share with all of you.

There's a story I would like to share with you. It was inspired by the writing of Loren Eiseley. Loren was a very special person because he combined the best of two cultures. He was a scientist and a poet. From those two perspectives, he wrote insightfully and beautifully about the world and our role in it.

Once upon a time, there was a wise man, much like Eiseley himself, who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had the habit of walking along the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore; as he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day, so he began to walk faster to catch up. As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead, he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.

As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?" The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing Starfish into the ocean."

"I guess I should have asked; why are you throwing Starfish into the ocean?"

"The sun is up and the tide is going out and if I don't throw them in they'll die."

"But young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach and Starfish all along it, you can't possibly make a difference!"

The young man listened politely, then bent down, picked up another Starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves. "It made a difference for that one."

His response surprised the man, he was upset, he didn't know how to reply, so instead he turned away and walked back to the cottage to begin his writings.

All day long as he wrote, the image of that young man haunted him; he tried to ignore it, but the vision persisted. Finally, late in the afternoon, he realized that he the scientist, he the poet, had missed the essential nature of the young man's actions. Because he realized that what the young man was doing was choosing not to be an observer in the universe and watch it pass by, but was choosing to be an actor in the universe and make a difference. He was embarrassed.

That night he went to bed, troubled. When morning came, he awoke knowing that he had to do something; so he got up, put on his clothes, went to the beach and found the young man; and with him spent the rest of the morning throwing Starfish into the ocean.

You see, what the young man's actions represent is something that is special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference. And if we can, like the young man, become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our vision the power to shape the future.

And that is your challenge, and that is my challenge. We must find our Starfish, and if we throw our stars wisely and well, I have no question that the 21st century is going to be a wonderful place.

Remember:
Vision without action is merely a dream
Action without vision just passes time
Vision with action can change the world

2010-07-20T23:46:00.001+08:00

失恋的时候，不要躲在角露哭泣，潇潇地威笑，比哭泣更需要勇气，就然它随飞去吧

watch the last part...

2010-07-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

i didnt want to take ippt because of the weather and siding of myself that i might fail again.

I was glad i did. I passed!!

It just say how much im a singaporean; too comfortable with what i have and always trying to avoid the hard way.

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”

2010-07-20T15:50:00.003+08:00

one day i'll fly away and forget about everything.... yesterday.. today.... tomorrow

Let that day be today... =D

It's not forgotten but overcome....

Stuckup outting

2010-07-19T23:09:00.002+08:00

"People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is!"

The food was great but the company that i had is like omg-are-you-kidding-me-they-are-marvelous.

Inception

2010-07-18T12:44:00.004+08:00

What is actually worst than a virus and spread faster, an idea. How do you actually plan an idea into somebody's mind? Thru dream.

Inception brought this new concept of dream in a dream in a dream. Creating different layers of dream so as to confuse your target and make it easier to plant an idea.

Sometimes we get confused with which is our dream and which is the reality.

Spoiler.... dont read if u have watch the movie!

The movie starts with Dom Cobb (Leonardo) washed up to a beach, he is injured and delirious. He opens his eyes once and sees two kids plaing on the beach. Some men with guns take him to an old man telling him Cobb is alone with a revolver and a brass top. The old man tells Cobb, he had once known a man who had that top with him and his name is Cobb.

The scene shifts to Cobb, Arthur (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) and Saito (Ken Watanabe) having a quite dinner, while Cobb is explaining him that if Saito wants to protect himself from Extraction (stealing an idea from dream) he would have to let Cobb in to his mind. Tell him all his screts. Saito seems uncertain and a little suspicious and leaves the room saying he will consider the proposal. Cobb and Arthur move out of the room and Arthur says Saito suspects something is wrong. Cobb says 'All the secrets are in that room. He looked right at it when i said safe'. Arthur then points out a woman in the crowd to Cobb and asks 'what is she doing here?'. Cobb then goes to meet her and he calls her 'Mal'.

Next scene we see Mal and Cobb in a room, Cobb make Mal sit on a chair and ties a rope to the leg and ties to climb out of the window down the building. We get to know from their conversation both know each other very well. Cobb climbs into the same room where he was previously having dinner and opens a safe and takens an yellow envolope. Just then Saito and Mal enter the room with guns. Cobb asks Saito if Mal told him the truth. Siato says 'what truth that we are all in a dream?' Then we see Cobb, Arthur and Saito actually sleeping in a room and a fourth guy monitoring them. Outside the house they are sleeping in, mobs are creating a riot and getting closer.

Back to the dream, Mal brings in Arthur and shoots him in the leg, because killing someone in the dreams will only wake them up, but pain is part of the brain and its the same in real or dream world. Cobb shoots Arthur in the head and kills him, and Arthur wakes up in the house. In the dream, all hell breaks lose, fighting and gunshots and buildings crumbling, Cobb tries to read the papers in the envelope.

In the sleep house Arthur tells the monitor to wake up Cobb, who pushes Cobb into a bath full of water. With amazing dream visuals of water breaking through walls and entering into dream in sync with the real world bath water Cobb wakes up, and so does Saito. There is a struggle between all, and Cobb says Saito dint put all the secrets in the safe and he needs them for the men who hired him, he threatens to kill him. Saito then realizes even this is a dream and it is the 4th guy's. As the rioting mob from out side breaks into the house all 4 of them wake up in a train. Cobb and Arthur and the dream architect leave the train. Saito wakes up alone with a teenage kid in his compartment.

Next scene we realize, Cobb has been running from US authorities and he has two kids and they are with their grand mother. Cobb and Arthur decide to lie low for a while thinking their employer would not be very please about the botched job. Saito catches up with them with his men and offers a proposal.

He wants Cobb to carry out Inception (putting an idea successfully into someones mind). If he did, then he can go back home to his kids and Saito will make sure all charges against him are dropped. Cobb agrees to this in desperation knowing it is an extremely complicated process.

To assemble the dream team he goes to meet his father who is a professor in an university and asks for a good architect. Hi father introduces him to Ariadne (Ellen Page) saying she is better than him. Cobb then takes her into a dream and makes her realize in dream you can design your world. She starts building the world as she goes walking in the deam. Cobb then explain all the nuances of designing a dream, that you can allow someone else's subconcious into your dream and that's why Cobb is there, and all the people around him are his projections or shades, where as the dream world it self is designed by Ariadne.

As she keeps changing the worlds he warns her that too much of change warns the subconscious that its not real and its a dream, and people in the dream start staring at her. She creates a bridge out of memory, which Cobb recollects as one of the places at which he spent time with Mal, he worriedly tells her creating something exactly like a memory brings out the sides of subconscious that we wont like. Suddenly everyone grabs them and Mal walks up to Ariadne and stabs her. Both Cobb and Ariadne wake up in a workhouse, she freaks out completely and leaves. Cobb tells Arthur that she will be back and he goes to get a forger (imitator) and with Saitos help brings Eames (Tom Hardy ) and Yusuf (Dileep Rao) into the team. Yusuf tells them about a sedative which is used for complicated layered dream.

The team decides to do a three layered dream set, with the third layer being the crucial point where the idea will be planted. The target is Robert Fischer, Jr., a multimillion dollar oil company heir, with his father dying he is ready to take over completely. His god father is Browning a key part of the empire. Saito wants Cobb to plant an idea in Fishers head to ruin his own empire.

While prepping for the job Ariadne learns that Mal is Cobbs deceased wife and actually sees a bit of his part while in his dream one day. He has issues that are making him unable to architect any dream without bringing in Mal as a spoiler. Ariadne warns him he should tell others. Cobb tells him that's why he is avoiding knowing the architecture of the dream so he doesn't know the secrets.

Arthur explains to Ariadne about totems, something which tells a person whether he is in a dream of real life. Cobb has a small brass top ( same as the one we see in the beginning of the movie), Arthur has a loaded dice. Arthur explains that in a dream a spinning top would never stop. Ariadne sets to build a totem for herself.

When Fisher Sr. dies, they decide to execute the plan on a plane to LA in which Fisher Jr. is carrying his fathers coffin. Saito books the entire flight, and Cobb slips Fisher the sedative. 10 hours of real world gives 1 week in the first level dream, 6 months in the second level and 10 years in third level dream. Their wake up call is the free fall which brings them out of dreams.

They enter the first level of dream. It is raining heavily. Arthur, Saito and Eames kidnap Fisher and take him to a warehouse. They get ambushed on the way by gunmen, and Cobb explains that Fisher might have been trained against dream extraction and these are his defenses. Cobb's subconscious brings a freight train right in the middles of the road. They some how reach the warehouse but Saito gets hit. When Arthur tries to kill him, Cobb stops him saying the sedative they all took will not allow them to just wake up. If you die before the sedative wears off you just go into a limbo, a middle world which could mean eternity to a mind stuck in there. By the time you wake up your mind is scrambled and you lose yourself.

When Ariadne confronts him about being the cause of the train in the middle of the road, he confesses that he cant seem to get Mal out of his dream. He tells her the story how she died. During their last dream together, something goes wrong and they get stuck in a limbo. Cobb tries to convince Mal that this isn't real and they should go back. They spend 50 years in the limbo when finally she agrees to come back. But when they did, Mal keeps thinking they are still in dream and that dying is the only way to wake up. She calls Cobb to a hotel room on their anniversary and tells him she sent a letter to their attorney saying Cobb is trying to kill her. She says she did that so it would be easy for him to die. She jumps off the balcony and with cops chasing him Cobbs flees the country.

Eames impersonates Browning and screams like he is being tortured. Arthur and Cobb talk to Fisher wearing masks. They tell him there is a safe in his office and they want code to that. Fisher denies knowing any safe, when he hears Brownings screams he asks them to let him speak to him. Eames impersonating Browning, tells him his father wrote a second will dissolving the empire and he, Fisher can use it if he wants to. Fisher wonders why he would want to dissolve his empire, Browning says may be his father wanted him to build his own, and that he loved him. Fisher says his father dint love him coz his last words to him were that he was disappointed.

Fisher's defenses start closing in on the warehouse. They decide to do the second level dream in a van. Yusuf is to drive the van and he should drive it off the bridge. That free fall is their trigger to come back from dream. They enter second dream sequence architecture by Ariadne and Arthur. It is a restaurant in a hotel where Cobb meets Fisher as his security officer. He makes him realize its dream because he doesn't remember how he ended up there and the gravity keeps shifting (Deam stage 1 the van Fisher's defenses are chasing and trying to destroy the van). Fishers own mind projects Browning in the dream as the bad guy who is behind the kidnap, the projection Browing confesses saying Fisher empire is all he ever worked for and he couldn't let him destroy it with the will in the safe.

Cobb convinces Fisher that he should enter a dream and know browning's secrets. They all gather in a room and enter third level.

Third level of dream is set in snowy mountains, where the safe is in a house guarded heavily by armed men. Cobb tells Fisher to go to the house and open the safe. Eames and the rest draw the guards away.

Dream state 1: van drives off the bridge. 10 seconds left state 2: No gravity situation.Floating. Arthur is getting everyone together. 3 mins left state3: Fisher is struggling to get to the safe. 60 mins left

After a long struggle, Fisher finally reaches the safe. But just then Mal appears, when Cobb hesitates to shoot her , she shoots Fisher killing him. Cobb then shoots Mal. Every body gathers around Fisher. Event Saito dies. Ariadne proposes they go in deeper and get fisher out. He must be in Cobb's limbo as Mal is nothing but a projection of his mind.

Ariadne and Cobb enter 4th level dream. The world in which Mal and Cobb were stuck for 50 years. They go to the house and find Mal sitting in the kitchen. Mal accuses him of leaving her telling him he promised they would grow old together. She tells him he is confused and the place they are in is the real world. He should stay there. Cobb tells Mal that she isnt real and Cobb has been guilty a long while. The brass top is actually Mal's.

Jumping to flash back when they were stuck in limbo Mal locked the top away in a safe. Cobb found it one day and put the idea in her mind that that was not a real world. He left the top spinning in the safe. When the idea became a strong belief Mal agrees to leave the world, they both lie on the train track to die and wake up in their house. But the idea takes possession of her mind and she dies thinking she wud wake up. And thats how Cobb knows inception is possible.

He tells her this is not real and that he is going back.

Dream state 4: Cobb tells Ariadne he will have to find Saito.Ariadne finds Fisher and pushes him off the cliff. and falls down her self. state3: Eames defibrillats Fisher who wakes up and goes into the safe. finds his father there who gives him the will from the safe beside the bed. (This is Fisher's own dream). Ariadne wakes up state2: Arthur has pulled everyone into lift and creates a free fall situation with explosives. Dream state1: Van is about to hit the water

Van hits the water. every one wakes up and swims up the river.

Back to the first scene. The old man talking to Cobb, we realize its Saito. Cobb tells him he should come back, Saito takes the gun in his hand. Next scene, Cobb is waking up in the plane and so is Saito. He makes a call. After alighting the plane Cobb gets past immigration without any problems. His father comes to pick him up and takes him to his old house where he again sees his kids playing out in the backyard.

Cobb spins the top on the table to see if this is real, just then the kids see him and run to him. He goes to hug them and the camera focuses on the top spinning, and just when we are about to see if it is going to stop the screen fades black.

The break

2010-07-16T23:41:00.005+08:00

People had been asking me what have i done since i quit my job. A whole lot i should say.... i went swimming, jogging, tanning, meeting friends and fishing just within 5 days....and yet i still have 2 whole day for myself to rest and have my 'me-time'.... just installed cs5 into my com =) and hopefully next monday i will be able to get my camera(jason khor u better dont ps me!!)

Plan for next week.... if u must know and idontcareit'smyblog i will tell anyway hahaha( k this is lame... ) will be going for my volunteering orientation and db.... and the following week ill be going to thailand!!! and 1/2 of aug it'll be FOC... hmmmm busy!!

oh and i made a bet with jkyh... if im able to achieve the ohyouaresohot bod he'll be treating me the new bar at sentosa... tanjong bar or something!! U ARE SO GOING TO LOSE!!

Anyway for our 2nd fishing trip.. we didnt manage to catch as much fish as we did previously...

Since the fish is taking a break.. i've decided to take a break and take some pic around the area... and i'm amazed that while focusing on fishing i've miss out some really good view around... metaphorically it's like missing out good ppl cause we are too focus on one...hmmmm something to ponder about...

Happiness and sadness run parallel to each other. When one takes a rest, the other one tends to take up the slack. ~Hazelmarie Elliott (“Mattie”)

2010-07-16T14:21:00.002+08:00

A boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. At one point he asked:
‘Are you writing a story about what we’ve done? Is it a story about me?’
His grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
I am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil I’m using. I hope you will be like this pencil when you grow up.’

Intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. It didn’t seem very special.
‘But it’s just like any other pencil I’ve ever seen!’

‘That depends on how you look at things. It has five qualities which, if you manage to hang on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.’

‘First quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a hand guiding your steps. We call that hand God, and He always guides us according to His will.’
‘Second quality: now and then, I have to stop writing and use a sharpner. That makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he’s much sharper. So you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrows, because they will make you a better person.
‘Third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. This means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps to keep us on the road to justice.’
‘Fourth quality: what really matters in a pencil is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. So always pay attention to what is happening inside you.’
‘Finally, the pencil’s fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be conscious of that in your every action’

source: “Like the Flowing River” by Paulo Coelho

把爱留在身边窗外有个蓝蓝的天
落叶那一瞬间记得多穿一件
一天过了一天我的日记却病恹恹
我们隔得太远太远
多喜欢你从来不会说
多在乎你到底懂不懂
你有没有对我一点点心动
爱我的话,给我回答
我的爱丫爱丫没时差
等待是我为你付出的代价
爱我的话要回答
我只等你等你一句话
走太远你走太远你的回答
听不见
一天过了一天我的日记却病恹恹
我们隔得太远太远
多喜欢你从来不会说
多在乎你到底懂不懂
你有没有对我一点点心动
爱我的话,给我回答
我的爱丫爱丫没时差
等待是我为你付出的代价
爱我的话要回答
我只等你等你一句话
走太远你走太远你的回答
听不见

爱我的话,给我回答
我的爱丫爱丫没时差
等待是我为你付出的代价
爱我的话要回答
我只等你等你一句话
走太远你走太远你的回答
听不见

2010-07-15T00:38:00.001+08:00

If you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden, or looking for dinosaur eggs in the Gobi desert. He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator. He will not be striving for it as a goal in itself. He will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life twenty-four crowded hours of the day.

2010-07-13T21:14:00.001+08:00

我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

我不能就這樣失去你的微笑

若角色對調你說好不好

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

你的笑　你的好

腦海裡　一直在繞

我的手　忘不了　你手的溫度

心碎了一地　撿不回

從前的心跳　傷心過去我無力逃跑

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

2010-07-13T00:48:00.001+08:00

From Jace's fbk:
love isn’t a feeling. it’s a decision.

love isn’t a feeling. it’s a decision. you decide when you wake up every single day if you still want to be with that person. you decide if when he’s having a bad day, and only putting in 40% that you’re going to add the extra 60%. relationships are hardly ever 50-50. and that’s the trickery of it all. you need to find someone who’s willing because they choose to love you.

once the puppy love fades away, once their not just something you can’t have, and once the honeymoon stage passes, you need to decide if underneath all that superficial bullshit, lies something substantial and something worth staying and fighting for. life’s hard, but once you find the one who’s willing to make up for all the bad things in your life, it gets easier.

at the beginning of every relationship you have this subconcious flashforward to your future together, and you see how happy you will be, with the kids and the frolicking in the green grass, with the bright sun on your faces, and the cooking breakfast while he’s holding you at the hips, and the grocery shopping, and the painting of your house together as he smudges some paint on your nose. and three weeks later it’s over. love is often underestimated and mistaken for lust, or even just enjoying someone’s company.

but my friend, love isn’t about butterflies, nor is it about what some boy says to you about forever.

look hard, and watch out for the good ones. because real love, the decision to make someone’s life amazing because you think they deserve it, because you adore them, the decision you’d make for only that person. the decision to support them, the decision to persevere, the decision to never give up. that, is crucial. real love is a decision. real love isn’t a whiff of craziness that hits you so hard you don’t know what’s going on around you, love is the guiding light that leads you to a happy life once you’ve found the right one. so many today mistake love for being this unknown feeling that no one can seem to explain.

in my opinion, love is a decision - that i made 2, but began 12 years ago.oh, and one more thing.love means no matter what. as plain and as simple as it gets. black & white. clear as light. no matter what, there’s no calling it quits. that is love

2010-07-12T14:45:00.000+08:00

我不相信你心中現在她最美
你不會你不會你不會把我們的愛踩碎
我不相信你口中會講出後悔
你不會你不會你不會不心疼
我拒絕被看見的淚

我生氣失蹤幾天我倔強口不擇言
是你緊抱我到情緒沉澱

我不相信走來的幸福在脫軌
你不會你不會你不會留殘酷讓我面對
我不相信累積的回憶都損毀
你不會你不會你不會捨得我
流一滴像乞討的淚

Sorcerer’s Apprentice

2010-07-10T20:47:00.006+08:00

If i have am sorcerer’s apprentice, i will use my power to freeze time.
Freezing time when i am with the one i love, it might sound selfish but ain't sometimes we just need the moment again. Thanking them for entering our life.

Losing someone you love and realizing that the person might never come back to you is really tearing one's heart. Or rather if i have the power i will use it to freeze my heart. =X

Warning! This synopsis may contain spoilers

A new live action comedy-adventure loosely based on the "Sorcerer's Apprentice" segment of Disney's Fantasia. In modern day Manhatten, the master sorcerer Balthazar Blake (Nicholas Cage) attempts to protect the city from his arch-nemesis, Maxim Horvath (Alfred Molina), an evil wizard with nefarious plans. Horvath is determined to claim New York City for his own evil purposes, and enlists an illusionist (Tony Kebbell) to help him toward that end. Given the formidable forces working against him, Blake does not feel that he can accomplish this mission alone. To help in his venture, he seeks out a seemingly average guy, Dave Stutler (Jay Baruchel), who is recruited to be Blake's apprentice. Stutler is initially skeptical, and reluctant to get involved, but eventually is convinced by Blake to help in this cause. Blake gives Stutler a crash course in magic, and mishaps invariably ensue. There is also a love interest in peril angle to the storyline that provides additional motivation for Stutler. Together, Blake and Stutler take on Horvath in a classic good versus evil struggle.

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Think recently cartoons/animation has a whole lot more meaning than just to entertain kids.

Despicable me.

In a happy suburban neighborhood surrounded by white picket fences with flowering rose bushes, sits a black house with a dead lawn. Unbeknownst to the neighbors, hidden beneath this home is a vast secret hideout. Surrounded by a small army of minions, we discover Gru (voiced by Steve Carell), planning the biggest heist in the history of the world. He is going to steal the moon. (Yes, the moon!) Gru delights in all things wicked. Armed with his arsenal of shrink rays, freeze rays, and battle-ready vehicles for land and air, he vanquishes all who stand in his way. Until the day he encounters the immense will of three little orphaned girls who look at him and see something that no one else has ever seen: a potential Dad. The world's greatest villain has just met his greatest challenge: three little girls named Margo, Edith and Agnes.

Have you had this feeling that you dont need anyone to be beside you, to be alone and thinking that you are actually happy?

Maybe sometimes we just need to remove our Armour and actually feel what others are giving to us.

=D hopefully one day i will feel that way....